Blog post: My jouney becoming a cam model/content maker. (Click 'read more' 👇)
So I left my last post just as a cheque dropped on my mat. I couldn't believe this camming thing wasn't a scam. I rang my partner at the time. I was so excited! I got the cheque! I can't believe it! I'm going to be ok! I'm going to make a lot of money! I felt so positive about my life for the first time in ages!
Little did I know at the time, but being a newbie on cam is a bit of a novelty for the viewers and that soon wore off. Over the next few weeks, I was logging on and I noticed that I was struggling to get users in my room. And nobody was tipping. What's going on!? What am I going wrong?
I spent a lot of time watching other cam models. I thought if I watched the successful ones, I would get ideas of how to make it work. I would see a girl smashing it and think 'oh I can do that!' So I would log on and copy what she was doing and of course would fall flat on my face. My confidence and self esteem was steadily going downhill. Not only was I making no money, but I felt like I wasn't cut out for this.
I sat down with my partner in the kitchen one day and I cried. Nobody wants to watch me. I'm not cut out for this. I'm just not good enough. I was in a state of horrible self pity.
Not only that, but a lot of the viewers that I did manage to get in thought I was a transexual. I kept getting the question 'are you a man? Did you used to be a man?' One guy even took me private and said 'oh I can't believe you're a trans.' I just couldn't believe it. Why does everyone think I'm a man? People kept telling me that I had a good body but my face is ugly. Thankfully I don't get that now. Looking back on it, I can see that my heavy clown-like make up and big hairstyle, paired with my height and masculine facial features (pre nose job) didn't help. I just couldn't see it back then.
As you can imagine, my self esteem was on the floor at this point. I remember one particular cam show, it was a slow one as usual and some random person came in and said 'ewwww so skinny.' I stood up, walked away from the cam and went and sat against the wall and cried. I can't do this anymore. I'm not cut out for it.
So I spent a lot of time trying to think of other things to do for work. I did little bits here and there. But i would sometimes slip a little bit of camming in when I was feeling confident. But not much changed. Then a few months down the line, I still had no real job prospects, I said to my partner. I'm going to give this one last blast. I'm going to do it full time for 6 weeks and see what happens. So I did. And to my surprise, it started working. I had one show and a guy came in and spoilt me with tokens and took me private. I logged off and bounced around the house. I had a good show!!! My partner came home from work and I went running to him! I had a good show!!! I was crazy exited.
From then on, I kept streaming and i had some slow days and some good days and eventually the good days started to overtake the bad. And i was making great money. And I have never looked back. Gradually I changed my style and the negative comments reduced and I hardly get any now. And when I do, I certainly don't feel like i want to cry anymore. Haha.
I just didn't realise that when you start camming, you have to treat it like opening a new shop. Nobody knows about you, or knows what you're about. Gradually you will gain followers, slowly and surely. You will always have bad shows. I still have bad shows now. But that's just the nature of camming. The next day could be an incredible show and you come away on such a high.
Camming is one of the best things to have happened to me. I have a life. I have money. I can work my own hours. I was able to get a dog which was something I wanted for a long time. I could not imagine doing anything else. And I'm grateful for it every day. 🥰
I'll talk about Onlyfans in my next one. 🥰
Wow this was a long one. 🤣
2020-12-10 11:53:05 +0000 UTC
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Some stills from one of my fav vids. Surprising step mum and fucking her while she is on the phone to Dad. 😜😅
2020-12-09 18:29:58 +0000 UTC
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There's still more to show you upstairs. 😉
2020-12-09 16:43:26 +0000 UTC
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On cam 😉
2020-12-09 13:17:56 +0000 UTC
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Good morning! 😜 I know you like the close up nipple shots. 😉
2020-12-09 09:05:50 +0000 UTC
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Ok, following on from the previous close up pussy pics, I attempted an orgasm as close up and HD as possible. 🤭😝 Creamy! 😏
2020-12-08 19:43:44 +0000 UTC
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You accidentally walk in on me like this. First thing you do? 😋
2020-12-08 13:26:18 +0000 UTC
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Well come on then! What you waiting for!? 😏
2020-12-08 12:05:53 +0000 UTC
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Slippers or heels? 🤣 (scroll 👉)
2020-12-08 12:01:35 +0000 UTC
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This was supposed to be a full length video but part of it wouldn't play for some reason. So you get a clip instead. 😝 Glass dildo tease in slippers and cardi. Sexy. 🤣🤣🤣
2020-12-07 19:19:36 +0000 UTC
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Oh my goodness, stairs + heels are lethal! 😲 Can someone please help me!?
2020-12-07 18:51:14 +0000 UTC
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Last night we watched a movie called Donnie Darko. Can someone please explain what the heck that was all about!? 🤣🤣 😳😅
2020-12-07 18:48:59 +0000 UTC
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Another chair nudie 😛
2020-12-07 18:41:14 +0000 UTC
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Random 😜 And a bit orange 😅
2020-12-07 15:30:47 +0000 UTC
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On cam 🙂
2020-12-07 14:18:39 +0000 UTC
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I have something to show you upstairs. Follow me! 😉
2020-12-07 12:02:43 +0000 UTC
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Happy Sunday. 😇 I'm not ignoring you all. I'll get to my pms tomorrow. 😘 I know some of you have sent tips. Spoiling me again. 🥰 Me , hubby and Holls are hopefully going to have an afternoon drink (and f orced meal 😅) for the first time in ages. 😊
2020-12-06 13:56:23 +0000 UTC
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It's the weeeeeekend!!! 😍
2020-12-05 11:44:30 +0000 UTC
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So much for me doing a ppv video once a week. More like once a month. 🤣🤣 Next week for definite! 🥴🤞😅
2020-12-04 21:59:08 +0000 UTC
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Oh my goodness guys. So much love this week. 🥰😘😘😘 Thank you! 😍 So many positive comments and you've spoilt me with tips. I have the best subs. 🥰🥰😘😘 Such a lucky lady. 😇
2020-12-04 21:31:45 +0000 UTC
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Progression shots of trying to get super focus on my pussy. 🤣 Got there in the end. 😅 (scroll 👉)
2020-12-04 20:42:40 +0000 UTC
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Your book? Oh I'm sorry, I was just borrowing it. Sure, you can have it back. Here...take it. 😏
2020-12-04 12:25:10 +0000 UTC
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https://onlyfans.com/english_rosieuk/audios
Onlyfans recent new format doesn't show the audios very well. So here is a link in case any of you haven't found them yet.
2020-12-04 11:32:42 +0000 UTC
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Hi guys. I've had a few pms asking if I have certain types of content. Just a heads up that there is a search bar just above my pinned post. I've circled it in pink. You can type in key words to find specific content. For e.g you could type in 'orgasm' or ' creamy' or 'oil' or 'maid' or whatever. If I have put that word in the title then it should bring those posts up. 😉
2020-12-04 11:29:27 +0000 UTC
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Good morning. 😛 I've recently been enjoying one of my old favourite horror Authors. 😉
2020-12-04 09:29:42 +0000 UTC
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Trying to work out in the same room as a Labrador = impossible 🥴😅
2020-12-03 20:14:28 +0000 UTC
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Oh wow you loved that close up pussy pic. I wonder if i can get my camera to focus on it long enough to get an orgasm that close and HD 🤣
2020-12-03 19:15:41 +0000 UTC
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Sometimes, a good creamy orgasm video is just the trick haha. Clit play with finger, glass dildo and my trusty Hitatchi to get that orgasm at the end. (I had to edit a little in the middle of the vid and all my creamy mess goes on my cardigan. Haha! But I soon get creamed up again! 😜)
2020-12-03 18:52:23 +0000 UTC
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@belle-lou shared a blog post with me that she wrote for her subscribers and she inspired me to write one for you guys. 🥰 (click 'read more' 👇)
Mine is going to be about how I got into the world of camming (and content making). I get asked this question a lot and so I thought this would be a good subject for my first blog.
For as long as I can remember I had my mind set on a particular career. Every stage of my education was a step closer for me and was geared towards this particular job. I studied hard at college and got the A Levels I needed to go to University to really begin working towards my dream. 4 years later, I graduated. I had done it! It had been bloody hard with many ups and downs. But I was there. I couldn't believe it! But this is where the real hard work came. Trying to get a job. I spent the next 8 years in and out of work. Mostly temporary. Finally I got that permanent position. I had bloody done it. It was mine.!!!
The first year was amazing. I was living my dream. Slowly things began to go downhill and I realised this job was not at all what I imagined it to be. Although I cannot reveal what the job was, I can tell you that it made me thoroughly miserable. It stole my life. I had no time. I was stressed and anxious. I was working all day, evenings and weekends. And I had no money.
After 3 years in my job, I felt like I was drowning. I broke down crying to the guy who was my partner at the time. He told me to quit. Quit!? I've worked my whole life to get here! It took me years to get this job. This wasn't even an option for me. I preservered. But things just got worse. I was falling into a deeper hole and could not climb back out. Whilst driving to work on a morning, I started thinking that if I had a crash, at least I wouldn't have to go in to work. I knew I had reached the end.
So, I resigned. Two months later, I left. The cloud lifted. I climbed out the hole. And I stood and looked at the sky for the first time in years. I was free. Free from my dream that had turned into a nightmare.
But I was also jobless and broke. What an Earth am I going to do now? I spent a lot of time searching the Internet for jobs. I even did a little bar work. I was starting to get pretty anxious about my life.
I sat down one day and typed in 'ways to make money online.' I had done this many times before. But this particular day, the Internet loop brought me to a page about camming. You can get paid for being on a webcam? No way! I was curious and joined Chaturbate. I made an account for a laugh. Sent in my ID and within an hour I was ready to stream. So I logged on and people started coming in my room and chatting to me. I asked them what on Earth I was supposed to be doing! Some people tried to help me. Then I started getting tokens. Well this was just bizarre. I did a few more streams over the next few days. My account said I had made $500. No way. This has got to be a scam. I did not believe it for a second. A week later, a cheque landed on my mat. No way!!!
I am going to end it there. I would love to share a blog post all about my journey as a cam model if you're interested. If this isn't something you guys like, just let me know.
Thanks for getting to the end of this with me. I hope you enjoyed a little insight into this part of my life. 🥰
2020-12-03 18:36:56 +0000 UTC
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Close enough? 👅👅👅👅👅
2020-12-03 13:54:53 +0000 UTC
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